The last days I feel like outer space, empty and having trouble to find words for what I want to express. Can’t find right words, can’t find words at all, just pure emptiness, even senselessness, like that stair in the picture – 24 hours going nowhere…..
From yesterday evening on my back and belly hurts, only walking is painless so I suppose the birth is coming soon. than, looking out of the window I saw in an old house across the street that the work men had to be in the crawl space under the house. That is an ugly job to do because the crawl space under the house – you meet al kinds of animals and dust and….brrrrrrr I shivered.
In the afternoon, after a power nap and the cat well treated at home again, I checked my email. My good friend in Germany told me about her dream about a crawl space and she crawling in there to get something very important.
Good friend Peter de Kock,
wrote about caterpillar and transformation so I agree that there is hope that this rebirth take place soon. My back hurts, so I need that root chakra and even deeper – crawl space. And if this does not make any sense to you we are at the beginning of my story: senseless and empty.
This morning a new wings came in from emerging earth angels:
For many, September 9 marked the final completion. This meant that we were absolutely and positively completely done with the old reality and lower dimensions. Thus, a massive cord was severed and we are now cut off from everything old…our prior lives, our prior roles, and our prior everything…really…..Like a knife cutting out and removing lower vibrating energies from our lives in one last fell swoop, any remaining cords are now being cut, seemingly whether we like it or not.
Now I start to see the meaning of this paiting I already made in 1998…the knife on the table to cut off al the dark..and Yes I have no idea how to continue except the fact that my energy-masterdegree is almost in reach and the last 6 classes start on saturday.
There is definitely something going on these days. This evening, just before tai chi class started, one of the other students arrived with two bags full of beautiful red apples from her own garden. No chemicals but 100% pure shining apples. She offered everybody some apples. The abundance of her gift and her joy sharing all these apples touched me. It was as if the universe wanted to compensate, to make up with me, for al the heaviness of the past few days. I would like to share some of this abundance with you by telling you this story of the apples. Abundance is on it’s way.
Dear Peter,
Thank you so much. Yes there is something going on. I am dieing of back pain, this morning even in tears. Red Appels: appels are the symbol of the new. Sometimes when doing a workshop I was ordered to have a bowl of apples ready for after the ceremony so this is a very wondeful symbol you got yesterday. And the earth leak age circuit breaker – 1st chakra, is read. Off we go I hope soon because I cannot stand the pain…heaviness is the other ingredient of this….thank you so much Peter…
Thanks a lot Gertrud for sharing the meaning of the apples: symbol of the new. Yesterday I knew the apples were a message and now I know what. I hope all your pain will be gone soon.
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